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I have high hopes for forming a group or network of writers. skull_theatre very accurately pinpointed for me exactly what I have been missing so much.

Waaaaaay back when, over 3 years ago, I was a mama staying home with a 3 year old and 6 month old. We were living in a military community in California, and when my husband was there he was so busy trying to learn a foreign language (Korean) we were mostly on our own. Then he went elsehwere to learn a different job, and we were really on our own. But I had this new secret addiction, and from that sprung a wholly new environment and inspiration for me. I found Harry Potter fanfiction one bleary late night, and dove in with strange fascination. Them I found a group of women (they were Snape lovers) and then I fell into LJ and met writers, people agonizing about stories and words and plots and talking about books and literary topics. And it was heady, but it also got me writing again.

This community fostered and encouraged me, they became friends, yes, and many of them are still on my other daily life LJ, women who have read and/or heard things of my life no one else has these 3 years and more...but when I left fandom I left the writing community in a very real way. The give and take, the enthusiasm to read each others work, the understanding and appreciation between others struggling with this alluring beast of writing, the surprising relevatory tangents of inspiration I would get from someone else's struggle or work or allusion...I miss that! For several months I've searched for ways back in that I can live with...looked at fanfic exchanges, thought about groveling to join someone's RP. I hope this journal will eventually help me find something like that again. I hope it is even more varied this time, because I hope to work on original, and I hope to read anything from writers from original to fanfic, from poetry to prose, fiction to nonfiction, etc. ad nauseum. It is the craft, not the genre, that was at the heart of that excitement.

It's taken me a long time to bring myself around to admitting that writing is what I want to do; that my writing is worth making that admission at all. It's certainly not an easy sort of passion or craft. I'm not looking for anything easy, though. I hope anyone along on this ride or reading this journal feels welcome to speak freely and hash it all out with me. Welcome.



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Feb. 27th, 2007 08:50 am (UTC)
You know what? I miss it too.

For me it went the exact same way. Discovering HP fanfiction one day, falling into LJ that way etc. etc.
I kinda miss the old days.
Mar. 2nd, 2007 02:47 am (UTC)
Me too. *hugs*
Feb. 27th, 2007 12:45 pm (UTC)
It was quite a shock when I found a still point after the...chaotic tumultuous cacophony of *waves hand* all that and realized that I missed it. Terribly. Achingly. In all the years of writing I've done, I never had had an experience like that before...and in my blind but frantic stumbling away from fanfiction I slammed the door on one of the more creative places I'd ever known.

I've made a type of grudging peace with fanfiction - and like yourself have also recognized the part of me that Needs to write.

Thank you for being here.
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